I felt yesterday's update to be a little vague. The photos that I chose to share had a much deeper context than I had described.
The brief summary of how I have felt lately was a mere scratch on the surface. Yes, I do yearn for adventure. Yes, I need to get lost in the sauce for a little bit in a place where I am a stranger.
The reality is, 2017 so far has been a choppy year. From day 1, I knew that this year would be a period of recovery and a never ending wrestling match with my own mental health. Three months in and my hypothesis has been proven. Though, I have been able to accept that things are this way for a reason and they can be dealt with. Aware of the current state of my mental health, I am ready to channel the residual emotions of the past six months in a new way. I want to make this year one in which I can thrive in every part of my life that has been lackluster. Im going to be more confident in my ability to make small talk with strangers. Im going to smile more even if I know it's not what I want to do. Im going to make photographs even though I have no set plans or ideas. Im going to tell the people in my life that I love them more. Im going to be happy.
Now I must formulate my plan, the "How" in this quest for happiness. The answer may be hidden behind 10,000 layers of darkness or it may be hiding in plain sight. Wherever it may be, I want to find it and cherish it. I have been without that friend happiness of mine for far too long.
The photos I have chosen to share today are a collection of the 35mm rolls I have shot so far this year. In each of these photos I remember there being a smile behind them. Whether it be a drunk and merry chuckle, a sarcastic nudge to a friend at breakfast, or a little smirk that I get when I know I captured what I consider a "banger."
Be back soon.